Sunday, August 8, 2010

My Journey Of Pain





It is beginning again, my journey of pain. I am suffering again pain in my lower back because of acute scoliosis of the lumbar 4. To those who knew me just recently, I was supposed to be operated in my spinal column at my lower back because of the collapse of my lumbar 5 to my lumbar 4 due to deteriorating scoliosis. That was almost 4 years ago before my wife went to the US to work. Aside from my spinal column, I was also supposed to be operated for acute hernia and prostate gland and for inflammation of my thyroid gland. But because my wife had to surrender her medical card because of her resignation from work, I decided that I would not undergo said operations for lack of money. Since then, I surrendered my life and health to the Lord. I survived almost 4 years of those illnesses plus my hypertension and diabetes. Two years ago, I had this terrible and excruciating pain in my lower back that rendered me almost immobile and caused so much extreme pain that I almost ended my life if not for the fear of the Lord and my being a Christian. Three days later the pain left by the grace and mercy of the Lord. I have been in and out of the portals of death so many times that I lost count already. But in all these trials, I always left my fate to God who have been so gracious to me. Now I live just by the grace of God and I offer my pains as a burnt offering to His all encompassing glory. In life and death, I will always love and serve the Lord. If I can just bring one more soul to the Lord to be saved, then my life would never be in vain. "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me" (Galatians 2:20). TO GOD BE THE GLORY NOW AND FOREVERMORE.



Tags: God, Jesus Christ, Holy Spirit, Journey, Pain, Trials, Persecution, Scoliosis, Lumbar, Acute Hernia, Prostate Gland, Thyroid Gland, Hypertension, Diabetes, Grace of God, Mercy, Compassion, Christian, Divine Healing, Restoration, Joy, Love, Gospel, Word of God, Holy Bible

Posted by: Mel Avila Alarilla
Philippines
Spiritual/Inspirational/Motivational

20 comments:

HoneyBUZZin said...

The Lord is our strength. You keep well Sir...

UMMA said...

OMG.. I never realized that you were and are currently experiencing this kind of pain Kuya Mel. We should have create such campaign like a "Blog for a Cause" to raise some money for your operation.

At least this will be able to help you pave the way for your operation that was being put off in the sidelines.

I hope somebody could supported my suggestion to commence that kind of campaign. My heart and prayers for your fast recovery.

God Bless you Always.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi HoneyBuzzin,
Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you always.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Umma,
No, that would not be acceptable to me. I wrote this article not to elicit pity or compassion but to show the glory of God to those who trust in Him. Even if I have the money, I will not undergo operation by now. The Lord kept me alive all through these years and He has provided for all my needs and I was never in want because of God's divine providence in my life. It is not pride nor vainglory that I do this but because of my complete trust in the Lord. My faith in God is complete that even if I die now I would accept that fate in His hands. Thank you so much for your concern. I highly appreciate that. But never ever conduct a campaign to help me. If you want to help me, you can refer those who would advertise in my blogs either as sidebar adlinks or paid post. Thank you so much my friend. I was so touched by your reaction to this article. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

Dhemz said...

praise to God...I believe in God's miracles kuyaMel..and I know din na malapit ka sa kanya..inde ka nya pababayaan....

*♥Shydub♥* said...

Sorry to ehar all this Sir mel. Bakit ganyan ang buhay, kung sino yungnapa devoted at mabait siya ang tinitest at binibigyan ng mga papasanin sa buhay. My Mom also had been feeling all pain lately, now that she is active in church. Hope you will overcome all these [pain you have been feeling Sir Mel.

Asawa ko rin nga may hernia, he just found out recently. savi ng doctor common daw yan sa mga lalaki na may pamilya kakakarga sa mga anak nila. Hirap siguro ng kalagayn mo Sir Mel sa damin pain na pipifeel mo. Bilib ako sayo parang wala lng sayo despite all this pain. Hindi mn lang kita narinig naglilikramo sa mga blog mo sa heal;th problem mo. Will pray for you Sir mel. Take care an may god bless and watches you all the time.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Dhemz,
Yun din ang pananampalataya ko. Without God, I should be dead by now. Kasabihan nga, isang bulate na lang ang hindi pa pumupirma sa death cetificate ko, hehehe, lol. Anyway, matagal pa akong mabubuhay dahil kailangan pa ako nang mga anak ko at nang mga taong aakayin ko sa Panginoon. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Shy,
Just to hear your words of encouragement is joy and comfort enough for me. I just focus on the Lord and not on my sicknesses so that I will survive. And God never fails to give me enough grace and comfort to sustain me. The Lord is glorified in my suffering as I testify about His great love for me. Thanks for your concern and prayer. I will also pray for your mother and your hubby. Just remember that he is a work in progress by the Lord. Thanks for your visit and inspiring comments. God bless you all always.

A Walk Through Life said...

hi brother mel, that was quite a revelation - your journey of pain. last time when i wrote about being sick - it was also pain in my back. i'm still in my 30s but yes i experienced a day or two in bed, unable to get up without my husband's help. thankfully, it went away after resting and some vitamin B supplements. i pray that God will heal you completely so you will be able to continue your ministry. i know your faith is so strong that there isn't any kind of pain you won't endure with His help and blessings.. God bless you brother mel

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Meretrisha,
Your words are very comforting indeed. I appreciate your kind words. I never focus on my sicknesses. I focus instead on the promises of God. I know God will never leave me nor forsake me. By His grace, I am still alive to write about His divine glory. Thanks for your visit and inspiring comments. God bless you all always.

mr.nightcrawler said...

magandang hapon. ngayon lang po ako napadpad sa inyong blog at nalulungkot ako sa kalagayan niyo ngayon. hindi man tayo magkakilala, i will still pray for your quick recovery para makapag-inspire ka pa ng maraming tao. basta wag lang bibitaw kay LORD, may plano siya para sa ating lahat. God bless po :P

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Mr Nightcrawler,
Thank you so much. I appreciate your concern. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you always.

charmie said...

Sorry to hear this Kuya Mel, God is with you all the time. Di ka niya pababayaan kasi you are a good person.!We will include you in our prayers!God Bless :)

Arvin U. de la Peña said...

Just pray for the Lord always..kasama na sa buhay ang mga pagsubok na galing sa ating katawan..sana malampasan mo iyan..

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Charmie,
Salamat naman sa prayers mo. I truly appreciate that. Sanay na ako dito. Parang cycle lang a buhay ko. Pagagalingin din ako ni Lord. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you always.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Arvin,
No problem, matagal ko nang tinanggap ang kapalaran ko at isinuko ko na ang buhay ko sa Panginoon. Ano mang mangyari sa aking katawang lupa ay nasa kalooban na nang Panginoon. Thanks for your visit and comforting words. God bless you always.

Bambie dear ★ said...

I actually don't know what to say Sir Mel.. medyo nalulungkot lang ako pero nagbibilib at the same time sa yo because you never loose your hope.. Ganun naman dapat talaga ang buhay, wag mawalan ng pag-asa at manalig lang, Sya na ang bahala. Im one of those who would willing to give help kahit sa anong paraan kung pagbibigyan mo lang. Health is wealth din, i hope you take extra care of your health na po.. Let us know...

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Bambie dear,
Your prayers will be more than enough for me. I wrote this post hindi para maawa ang tao sa akin kundi ma focus and attention nila sa glory of God while He maintains me at all cost. Dapat matagal na akong patay if not for the grace of God kaya naman ginawa kong ministry ang pagsusulat tungkol sa Kanyang kaluwalhatian. I know your heart and your sentiments. And I know how extremely loyal you are to your friends. Thanks for the thought though. I really appreciate that. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

Pia said...

hi bro. i have my laptop already and i bought smartbro. my patience is being tested with this gadget. but i shouldn't complain. anyhoo, bro, i want you to know that i always pray for your healing. i don't know how and when but i do know that God is able and that He is willing to give us the healing we need in His perfect timing. bro, know that i am praying for you.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi sis Pia,
I know that you are praying for me as I am praying for you. I agree with you that healing is part of God's divine plan for us and I have nothing to complain about. We will be on the same level very soon because my wife also sent me a laptop and soon I will be using it when I purchase my own internet card. Thanks for your visit and prayers. God bless you always my friend.

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