Tuesday, September 16, 2008
The Day I Almost Committed Suicide
I will never forget that day. That was November last year when I almost took my life because of severe and excruciating pain in my lower back and my whole torso. You see, I was born with a congenital scoliosis (a deformity in the lumbar section of my lower back). This has hampered the normal flow of my life and has caused me so much pain for most of my life. For two months last year, I was unable to go out of my house because of the nagging pain in my lower back and right leg. I was limited to a few movements inside the house. Then it happened. As I was bending to pick up a soap in the bath room floor, I felt a sudden twitch in my right leg and I felt a horrifying pain shot up on my whole torso. I could not stand up any more and the throbbing pain began to flood my entire torso. I have to literally crawl out of our bath room and lie on the sofa in our living room. And that has been my only place in the house for three days.
The pain was such that I have to take the most powerful pain reliever every four hours. I did not eat during those three days, only a few nibbles before taking my medicines. I have to use a makeshift crutch to be able to go to the toilet to relieve myself. I lulled myself to sleep and contented myself in praying to the Lord. On the second night of my ordeal, the pain was so much that I contemplated on getting a kitchen knife and ending my misery and pain. Only the fear of the Lord prevented me from doing so. I knew my God would deliver me. Then it came. On the night of the third day of my ordeal, a text message (sms) came to me from a Christian sister and friend bearing a verse in Jeremiah 30:17, "But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds, declares the Lord." I claimed that promise and I knew my deliverance was at hand. When I woke up the next morning the pain was gone and I was able to go to the toilet unaided to finally relieve myself. I took a fresh bath and that was so wonderful an experience. The Lord has delivered me time and again from the valley of the shadow of death. LET HIS NAME BE PRAISED AND GLORIFIED FOREVERMORE.
Tags: God, Jesus Christ, Holy Spirit, Pain, Suicide, Deliverance, Fear of The Lord
Posted by: Mel Avila Alarilla